So I went through an old post I made in 2015 during blaugust, and an old personality test a lot of us did back then. And I started to wonder, could this chart have changed up a bit?
I’ve gotten older, I’ve been in a lot of therapy, what is it now, 4 years of therapy? So yes, I was interested in checking.
Obviously it’s not a test to take too seriously, but ya know 😀 Huge wall of text incoming!!
Old one 2015 :
New test 2017:
Your Personality Profile :
Down-To-Earth, Spontaneous, Introverted, and Emotionally Reactive.
Openness to Experience from 1% up to 5%.
- People who score high on Openness are inquisitive and imaginative. They like to think about “what can be” instead of “what is”. They like to think deeply and play with abstract, unconventional ideas. They enjoy trying out new things and visiting new places. They are creative, and enjoy art and aesthetic experiences.
- People who score low on Openness are practical and grounded. They are down-to-earth, traditional, and conventional. They are focused on facts and reality, and they prefer the routine and the familiar. They seek out the stability and security that comes from conforming to widely-shared, traditional values.
So yeah – there is not much change, but there is a slight change, I’m learning VERY slowly to open up my mind a bit. But ey, we are who we are, and not everything is meant to change and not everything should change so much, yeah?
Conscientiousness from 58% down to 24%.
- People who score high on Conscientiousness are organized and self-disciplined. They make plans and follow routines and schedules. They have a strong sense of duty and obligation. They work hard to achieve excellence and success. They are persistent, efficient, and reliable workers. They take their time to consider outcomes and alternatives when making decisions.
- People who score low on Conscientiousness are spontaneous and flexible. They are adaptable and react well to unexpected situations and change. They find rules to be arbitrary and stifling, and don’t mind breaking them. They enjoy living life on a moment-to-moment basis, following their own whims, and often take leaps of faith to see what happens next.
This point I feel is somewhat accurate, I am happy to see this, even if it’s just a silly test. I do feel I have become a bit more flexible and can do things in the spur of the moment ( a tiny bit anyways ). I think it’s good that I don’t always have to plan out every single thing in my life anymore. It just feels a bit more relaxed, just shows that my anxiety levels to things have decreased, the need for control is decreasing. Even if it’s still there, it’s improved!
I am however not too adaptable nor do I react well to unexpected situations. BUT I can cope with them a hell of a lot better now then I did back then.
Another point, it mentions duty and obligation. This can be a good thing, but for me it was not. It was a heavy burden of not being able to say no to anyone or anything. I think that has a lot to do with the change in the test, me being able to say “no, sorry I can’t”.
But the sense of duty when it comes to work and similar has not changed and will never do. I’m not a person who can ever slack at work or just push things over to others.
Extraversion from 2% up to 15%.
- People who score high on Extraversion like being around people and are energetic, enthusiastic, and active in their everyday lives. They like constantly being on the move, enjoy big parties and crowds, and crave excitement and sensory stimulation. They are cheerful, optimistic, and make friends easily. They like to speak out, take charge, and are natural leaders.
- People who score low on Extraversion are quiet, low-key, and are perfectly happy spending time alone. They tend to be reserved in social situations and keep in the background. They prefer quiet, peaceful, and relaxed environments. Their typical mood and disposition is more subdued and neutral. They are slower to reach out to others and tend to have a small circle of close friends.
Now it’s not a big bump up, but it’s a bump up! Go me! I am an introvert and will always be one. But one thing I have noticed about myself as I started working is that I am a lot more outgoing in a work scenario/work place, then I am as a private person. I guess I have a work role that I put on, and then my home role. I’ve figured out that I can lead people if need be, I just chose not to be that person if I don’t have to. I will never crave having loads of people around me or go looking for thrills. I dislike busy areas, loud sounds and stress, and need a chilled out environment even if am able to be more outgoing. Doubt this section of will ever grow past 20%.
Agreeableness from 93% down to 37%.
- People who score high on Agreeableness are sympathetic and compassionate. They value cooperation, social harmony, and assume that most people are fair and honest. They are naturally trusting and sincere in their dealings with other people. They are modest, dislike confrontation, and always willing to compromise to get along with others.
- People who score low on Agreeableness tend to be objective and skeptical. They are vigilant about other people’s motivations and tend to be more guarded and strategic in their interactions with other people. They are direct in their communication style and don’t mind openly confronting or challenging others. They value truth, justice, and making objective judgments based on reason alone.
Well there’s a huge change. Guess I lost my compassion! 😛 I know the reasons I scored so high on this the first time. And that is because I could never confront people honestly. I was scared and usually avoided situations or just agreed with the bigger masses to not be seen or made a fool of. I was never super trusting, as this test claim. It’s one of the biggest things I’ve worked on in therapy, my lack of trust and skepticism towards people. Trusting no one beyond family.
This has changed a bit though. I don’t go around thinking every man and woman on earth hates me, or dislikes me. That is absurd and I’ve started to care less as to what random people feel or may think about me. Only thing that matters is what those in my own circle think about me. And I doubt they would stick around if they didn’t like me.
I figure the reason I scored so “low” this time is because I can actually speak up and say what I want to say. If I feel like it, sometimes I just don’t wanna engage. I think I’m in a better spot now then back then, although perhaps it could be a bit more towards 50%. Which I think it will be eventually.
This little creatures body language pretty much sums up how I have been feeling inside. When it comes to speaking up, how I felt if I had to say no to someone, and how I ran around trying to have a job while feeling worthless. Things were so close, but felt impossible to reach.
Emotional Stability from 14% down to 3%.
- People who score high on Emotional Stability are calm and relaxed even in stressful and anxiety-provoking situations. They are even-keeled, fearless, and remain poised and confident when under pressure. They are difficult to provoke and are able to easily resist urges and temptations.
- People who score low on Emotional Stability are reactive and sensitive. They often worry about things, especially when under stress, and become nervous and tense. They are sensitive about what other people think of them, and are easily embarrassed or discouraged.
Main reason I think I actually scored lower here which could be interpreted as negative is a simple one. I understand more about myself, how I react. What’s the word, self – knowledge?
This happened a lot during tests when I went to therapy the first years, when I had all those written tests to take. Many times I could see my scored become higher or lower. At first I thought I was actually doing worse, therapy isn’t working. But the therapist quickly pointed out that it’s not always the case when you see how tests change from time to time. It’s just because you are more aware of your feelings and thoughts. So you are just more accurate in your tests, then the first time.
I do worry about things when I am under stress and I can freeze being unable to think straight. And I know this about myself, and that’s good. I know what kind of work I cannot do, I know what times of the day I might not feel very well. I have learned a lot of my triggers, like if I lack an hour of sleep, my day can be ruined. If I do get embarrassed I withdraw and/or get angry. But I have all that crap more under control now, then I did 2 years ago. Except the discouraged part, I give up easily on certain things, but I am not giving up my goal of becoming a better me.
All in all
I’ve taken a lot of tests over the years and I do know I have changed a lot. I still have things to work with. This might not be the most accurate test, but it’s interesting to see anyways. I am definitely not a spontaneous person, but I do consider myself as a down to earth kinda person, I know I am an introvert and I’m emotionally reactive for sure.
Perhaps I will take the gamer test tomorrow, as I did 2 years ago, see if my gaming preferences have changed^^,